Forgive Me

Forgive me, because I have been too young to rightfully handle some things, too immature to react properly, a flawing beginner of the many challenges that have taken place since I was very young.  My negligence and ignorance may have damaged others too.  With a lack of enough knowledge I have tried and failed in certain areas of my life, and not intentionally.  If I have ever falsely accused you, of this I am so sorry.  I have been confused, hurt, lied to, damaged and angry about it, though I hid my anger well, my actions beg to differ.  I didn’t think about the domino effect, or repercussions of sharing my pains, or my thoughts about them.  I never claimed hate, and certainly didn’t want anyone to hate for me.  I also didn’t mean to hurt anyone, but ignorance, carelessness, and slippery curiosities that lead to falling into darkness is no excuse.  I can’t even claim I didn’t know any better in some situations.  In some cases I did, but didn’t bother to take heed to the advice or warnings given to me.  Hardheaded, and stubborn is what they call that.

For all the damage of those who have done it to me, I soulfully forgive you too.  Even what may have caused the actions of some of my own evils, with all my heart and mind I do forgive you.  I’ve come to acknowledge all of our true enemies are from the same darkness, challenging us all, and this source of evil is what is causing us to hurt one another.  I have also learned by experience that forgiveness is a very powerful thing in the eyes of God.  It can only work both ways, forgive and ask for forgiveness.  It should never just be one-sided, or one may continue to suffer the weight of darkness, and without the power of forgiveness we’d all be trying to kill each by now, and probably for any simple reason.  Consider the Lords Prayer: In it – Matt 6:14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you forgive not men their trespasses, your father will not forgive your trespasses.  If a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness, consider thyself. Gal. 6:1.

We must also forgive ourselves, which is not so easy to do, as it may seem.  We can punish ourselves, give up on our rights for any happiness, and expect no good to come, unless we allow ourselves to heal from within.  We must let it go.   We should allow the stain to wash away cleansing us from the shame and guilt that comes from being born with the curse of sin, even though we may try not to sin, no one is perfect, but forgiveness is that powerful.  If God is equipped to forgive all mankind of sin, by the sacrifice of his only begotten son Cor. 15:1-4, (all the world, mind you!) surely there is enough forgiveness in our little hearts to accept this blessing of an ability to forgive, both for others and for ourselves.  Take a good look at our world.  This creation is too beautiful for anything less.  Just caring and sharing.

Author: Cosima

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